Monday, April 16, 2007

Today

Day by day, i just can't believe that soemone so perfect like you would exist and i am very thankful to God for your existent. However, it would be much more better to have you by my side, as the one that who will be there for me. In the movies, drama, and whatever media, so easy for them to find love. Just by bumping into one another, they fall in love. In reality however, it is like so difficult to find love. Not in the perspective of make love and leave. I mean love as to long partnership and 'till death do us apart'. But look at our parents, most of us that is, they are so loving to each other for at least 20 years no matter how they met in the first place, whether it is through matchmaking or love at first sight.

Fantasies and dreams, these are the words that i'm drowned in. Words that are almost non-existent in the world of cruelity and violence. Dreams however are much more complex than fantasies, some say they can be intepreted and some say they could come true if the dream is repetative. Well for me, i believe that the dream could come true if i were to just keep quite and not tell others about what i had dreamt about.

Posted by The Fool at 2:27 AM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Infatuated at you

There are some things that i wish i could just tell it straight forward. But it is somewhat impossible as u have ur friends surrounding u. Only time u'r alone, i am not there to say. This is like a nightmare where the finished is yet to be dreamt. However that' s not the only thing. I don;t understand as to why there are so many other people into you. I just wished it was anly you and me, so that we could live happy ever after but i don't believe in that. Only fairy tales have that sort of ending but not reality. Reality is much more cruel then dragons and ogres. There are such things as heartbreaks and suicide in reality. However suicide just doesn't suit me as i won't look good when dead. I prefer to be alive as i am now not like some emo shit.

When in school, i have noticed that you would look at me at times, me siting outside the canteen and you inside of the sc room, by the window or at the door. How is it that you are able to cope with all the SC thingy as when i look at you, your innocence and peace appearance just soothes me and yet angers me? Why am i angered when i look at you? Maybe it's just that i feel frustrated at myself for not letting you know how i feel for you. Maybe its because i'm too scared to talk to you or maybe even look at you. I just wished that you will just come to me and say something that i can accept. Maybe not as that won't be very gentleman of me. I should be going to you and say that three words that i hope you could accept that word from my own self and accept me for the way i am.

These wishful thinking, i wish for them to come true. For it is my wishful thinking and i should be wishing for it to come true. Fot if it were a wishful thinking but i don't wish for it to come true, i would just be contradicting it. Well, i guess here are my last words for today: Always believe in yourself.

Posted by The Fool at 2:45 AM

Love Or Infatuation

I think the difference between a crush and an infatuation is only in degree and neither of them is even close to the meaning of real love. I perceive a crush to be something rather platonic. For example, your best friend's brother is a cutie and you have a crush on him, that type of thing.

An infatuation is intense and often times, short lived. In infatuation, people tend to idealize the other person and fail to see their shortcomings. They emphasize the positive attributes in the other person and this adds to the intensity of their infatuation, which they mistakenly perceive as "real love," or more accurately described, they feel they are "in love."

Being in love is an exhilarating feeling, and it has the potential to become real love. Being in love is like the hook for the opportunity of real love to present itself. When you are in love with someone, you feel very attracted to the other person, in several different levels: physical, mental, emotional and yes, spiritual. From getting to know the person with whom you are in love, real love has the opportunity to flourish.

Real love, unlike an infatuation is realistic. Real love is a complete acceptance of the other person, and of oneself. Because if you can't love yourself, who can you love? Or who will love you? Complete acceptance does not mean that we don't find shortcomings in the other person, as that is not possible, we are humans and we are not perfect, we all make mistakes. Complete acceptance means discernment with no judgment. It means that we accept the whole package just as it is, without trying to change the other person to meet our every need.

Real love resides in knowing one another. In knowing what our strengths are, what our weaknesses are, what our potential is. In knowing these things we come to respect, and admire each other, and out of that, real love is born. In the words of Wayne Dyer, " Love is the ability and willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves without any insistence that they satisfy you."

Taken from http://personals.yahoo.com/us/static/singles-life_infatuation;_ylc=X3oDMTIwODYzZXYzBF9TAzI3MTYxNDkEX3MDOTY1MzE5NzMEc2VjA2ZwX3RvZGF5BHNsawNzaW5nbGVzLWxpZmVfaW5mYXR1YXRpb24

Posted by The Fool at 2:24 AM