Sunday, July 29, 2007

Appreciation

Posted by The Fool at 5:39 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007

None

Various emotions are on the mix today. I was on the way to school this morning but my bicycle chain just broke. I am so scared to tell me parents so i'll just stage that some assholes wanted to ruin the bike. haass. Anyways, played traunt, skipped my remedial class today, Miss Lim's remedial class and i'm like so fucked. Instead, i went to play soccer with yh, fad and alep with all the skillma players. Oh well, still, i have quenched the thirst for football. Later on the afternoon, went pking. That is the only time when i can release stress by running, climbing and kicking.

What stress? Hmph. I have so many things to write about my stresses. However most are just minor ones but some are majorly problematic and hurting. So long have i waited for a chance to win her love. She did showed some good signs but i can feel that she is really stressed up. I am scared. I don't mind her rejecting me but she seems to be a little out of control to me. I'm scared that she would hurt herself. Are you going to hurt yourself? Argh!

Why must it happen at this stage? Is it really necessary for you to just be hurt now? I want you to be safe. I want you to be good. I want you to be mine. I want you.

Posted by The Fool at 8:03 AM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Blew it away

I am such a loser. When i have the opprtunity, i keep on wasting them! What is to become of me? Can someone help me? Help me find that way not to blow it away? Kewl, it rhymed. These few days i have not been feeling like myself. I feel so many emotions at one time. I hate the stress i get from the FnN. So much things to do but so little time. I hate it when my form teacher keeps pushing me to do stuff! I know she is doing it for my own good but i can't help but feeling stressed up! Argh! I'll update nest time. Gotta do FnN!!

Posted by The Fool at 7:24 AM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Not Much

Doesn't seem like much right now but i guess its going to be over. It have always been the same things, confess and ignore. Happened twice and i'm getting fed up already! Is there anything wrong with me? I have been told to confess. I have done that. But now, seems like i have been ignored. I have nothing much to say. So much depression. Haiss...

Posted by The Fool at 6:13 AM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Fuck me upside down

I fucking hate my luck. Is it really that bad? To start off this week with cramp legs and now haizz. Broken legs..uh no, i mean broken heart. Why is it really that bad as to this kind of results? What fuck did i do? I didn't even touched any girls last week, umm, i think. What is the fucking wrong thing? Is it me? or is it some others? however it is, i am feeling llike a piece of shit..no wait, i hate this term, like dirt of the highest degree. Fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Am just a guy drowned with water..uh no, with broken dreams. That's better...

Posted by The Fool at 6:14 AM

Friday, July 06, 2007

Idiort!

Jealousy + a bad day = Stupid decisions

I made a stupid decsion and that cost my friendship! Jealousy kills people! I repeat, JEALOUSY WILL DESTROY!

Seriously, was i that stupid to have reverted back to when i almost lost mai because of jealousy? I vowed to myself that i changed, not to be easily jealous but i broked that vow. It just makes me feel so stupid, so useless. A simple mistake that could cost a friendship that is so dear to me.

From here on, i will only get jealous when neccesary. Not more, not less. Not beafore i ask, not before any questions. Stupid guy = stupid mistakes.

Posted by The Fool at 8:33 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Not so Perfect

You are the one that I have chosen to give my heart to. But is it really necessary to drag that one answer from such a simple question for sometime? Why are you doing this to me? What wrong have I done to you? All I did was to express my feelings to you. It felt so difficult for me even though i have done it a few times. Why the choice? It was your sweet and gentle nature that attracted me to you in the first place. After a few times chatting with you, you showed one part of your dark side. The drinking. Even so, you have promised not to drink without my permission, which i doubt you will keep because drinking is just too much fun rite?!

Only after i have heard your sweet, gentle voice which made me grew deeply attached to you. Its all these sweet attributes you possess that i feel attracted to. Still, i don't feel all secure with some wild friends of yours. Secrets have been told, secrets have been kept sealed, secrets to be trusted with, only between you and me.

Posted by The Fool at 8:30 AM

Felt

Its like 11.27 now and i feel all depressed. I don't know what the problem is! Argh! Its so frustrating when the old memories and some new people are entering my heart at the same time! Of all girls, why must it be you! Why did I chose you?! Is this a challenge for me to face or is it retribution for what i have done to my other exs? But even so, why play with my feelings? Why! No way! I can't have it this way! Argh!!!

Posted by The Fool at 8:27 AM

Con-musement

I don't know how to start. Its been a few days and its been hard trying to get you to understand my feelings better. I have tried someways to let you know how i feel and i have succeed in doing so. However, why is it that you don't know that i am trying to steal your heart, for you to be with me? You are just afraid to let these feelings seep into you once again. Is that the reason? If so, i can help open your heart to let the love flow again and i wish for that love to flow from me to you. I wouldn't want it to stop flowing. Why flow? When water flows down a stream, a river or anything, there is no end to the flow. Even when something steps on the trail of the stream, the water would just move around the obstacle and continue on their journey to god-knows-where.