Sunday, August 19, 2007

Useless

Posted by The Fool at 9:07 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007

Pressure

I can't stop shaking now. I have no control over my body anymore. I feel like i need a dose of anything to make me have control! Argh! All stress seems to be seeping through my veins and muscle. I feel weak and i wish i have something to kill this stress! I just feel like no one can understand what i feel about it. come on. I am trying to help people! Not kill them! If i kill people, i will do it myself with my bare hands. i don't mind dirtying my hands, as long as i have that reason to kill em.

No remorse. No regret. No fear.

That is what i am now. I am sorry everyone but i can't be that same person anymore. I'm forced. Goodbye Hisham...

Posted by The Fool at 7:36 AM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Problems

It have always been their problems. Never about mine. I have been their listener, their place for comfort but what do i get in return? Their friendship...i guess. Whenever i have a problem, everyone seem so far from me. But when they have a problem, i am always there for them. well, i try to. I have been keeping all my problems within me. Even if they are there, i can't seem to tell them what my problems are as its too personal.

I just need that one someone whom i can share thoughts with, to share my happiness and sorrow with. Someone who would care for me when i'm depressed. haizz. i just wish for them but will never come true. its ok...

Posted by The Fool at 10:20 AM

Unwritten

I don't know what to do anymore. seems like everything is so far now. all that i have worked for is that far. i don't know what to believe in anymore. My friends? Her? or what? I wished that things weren't as complicated as this. I try to be that normal romantic guy but it just didn't work with me.

yes i'm lame thank you.

Posted by The Fool at 9:25 AM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Life?

I have seen many people talk of life like life sucks, unfair and all. But have they ever thought of the lives of others? I am getting sick and tired of these people. Why is it that they hate life so much? Its not life's fault that their life is like that. Its their behaviour and attitude that they THINK that their life sucks. Come on people, reflect on what you have. Reflect on what you have done. Reflect on what the person's personality, their past and background before saying that YOUR life sucks.

If you look at the bright side, there could be more people out there to make you guys happy. Its never really the end when someone 'leaves' your life. You will have to look forward, forget the past, pick up on the future. There is no use looking at the past as time won't go backwards. Learn from your past and teach the future. Make your own future. Life sucks is not an answer. The answer is right in your lives and you attitudes. Feel free to open up to people, don't be afraid as there are people who want to help. Like me. =)

Posted by The Fool at 5:26 PM

Around Me

I don't really have the mood to write a blog but somehow I just feel like its necessary to write one now. Its just that I have been thinking about her problems. It seemed so much for her to handle it alone. I know that I have not known her for that long but i just feel so concerned. Its like I can't bear to see her go through all this alone. She has a guy but it doesn't seem like she has one.

I know I have no rights but as friend, that special friend, I just want to help her! its not like i want be a busybody but it serves me a purpose to care for others. It gives me that feeling that I am actually useful in this world. This is not about me alone but its also about her. I hope you would understand and approach me if there is anything troubling you. Please...